Everything's Bouquet

Monday, July 23, 2012

Week Two Results

Hokay I accomplished one of the four goals I set for this week at the end of my last blog post.  I did lose two pounds this week....BARELY.  By the skin of my teeth for sure.  My total loss for the first two weeks is  five pounds.
Boy this is hard.  It should not be hard. I know how to do this.  It seems so reasonable that this is doable, and I am trying really hard to hypnotize my brain into the clean eating healthy living mode. I'm trying to lose  by just eating healthy most of the time but still allowing for some of this and some of that too.  You know,               a healthy smoothie for breakfast, and a healthy lunch, but a tiny bowl of ice cream or a piece of my daughters cake of the week in the middle of the afternoon.  I was hoping by not sticking strictly to a totally clean diet I could stay faithful to it for life.  I'm wondering though if the indulgences, which aren't healthy, aren't making it harder.  I also don't know if I'm ready to bite the bullet and go strictly clean.  I'm pondering this today, and trying to talk myself into it.  I think I know what the right thing to do is.  Am I strong enough to do it? Of course I am.  The right question is will I do it?  And if the question is will I do it and the issue is doing the right thing why am I wavering? I always need to do the RIGHT thing no matter what the issue is.  I don't know why I think food gets different treatment in my life.  
I don't have this figured out...OBVIOUSLY...but I'm working on it.  
Lose at least two pounds.
Blog two more times.
Journal at least once.
Eat cleaner.

31 pounds to go to get to where I was.  

Monday, July 16, 2012

Week One Results

It was an interesting week.  The products the program sent me were nutritional smoothies and bars.  The first five days consisted of three smoothies and two bars.  Day six added real food.  I was determined to make it.   I have done many weeks longer on juice cleanses and the clean program.  What I didn't count on was being allergic to the ingredients.  I was worried the smoothies would have artificial sugar in them, and I am allergic to that.  When I saw there was no artificial sugar I thought I was good to go.  WRONG.  The smoothies were made with soy protein.  Day one I was sneezing and blowing my nose like crazy every time I drank a smoothie.  Day two had more of the same with some added you know what that makes you RUN for the potty.  I can take sneezing, but not that other awful thing.  I continued on through day three telling myself that I am not a quitter, allergy or not.  FINALLY, in the middle of day four I was feeling even sicker and just threw in the towel.  I decided making myself sick wasn't healthy either.

The remainder of the week I did try to eat somewhat healthy.  I weighed in today and lost 3 pounds.  Yea for 3 pounds!  Honestly, this time around I just want to lose consistently and slowly.  I want to eat clean most of the time with a few splurges here and there.  I am aiming for something I can live with once I finally reach my goal.

Below is a picture of our lunch: Caprese Peach and Tomato Salad.  I found the recipe at Fat Fighter TV.  It was healthy and delicious...my favorite combination.

Goals for this week:
Eat clean
Lose at least two pounds
Blog at least two times

Monday, July 9, 2012

I'm a Statistic

I'm a statistic, and not a happy statistic.  I'm in the larger side of the group in the weight loss world  that gains back the weight they lost.  This is not the blog I was hoping to write in my first post back from my long hiatus. I stepped on the scale for the first time in several months this morning and the news was sadly shocking.  I gained back 36 of the 40 pounds I lost last year.  I might address the why and how of how I managed to do that in another blog post.  Today I am addressing my forward plan.

Lately I have been feeling SICK of the whole eating/weight/healthy issue.  SICK, SICK, SICK of it.  So SICK of it that I figure I have two choices.  Am I SICK enough of the battle to throw in the towel and embrace overeating and it's lifestyle, or SICK enough to finally conquer this battle and stop driving myself crazy.  I hope and pray I am SICK enough of this to lose this weight for good this time.

My fourteen day plan: The Urban Girl Wellness Nutrition Program. I won a give away from Melodee at the very funny and inspiring  The Diet Naked Blog.   I have been trying to get myself back on track since February, and when I won the give away I promised myself that I would follow the program to a tee.  So a big thank you and shout out to Melodee and Paula (at the Urban Girl Wellness).  I am hoping this plan will help break my sugar addiction, get me adjusted to smaller portions, jump start my weight loss, and generally inspire me to keep going and finish the job.

Below is a picture of my vision board I put on the outside of my progress journal.  I'm going to record the details in here.  Next Monday I will post my weight loss for the week.  The notebook cost me literally ten cents at Target last year, but putting my vision on the outside was fun and inspiring.....I resisted priceless. :)