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Tuesday, February 2, 2010

I am NOT a Robot

Just in case any of you were wondering, today proves that I am not a robot.  In December my good friend from the cold north was exasperated at her husband.  He is a robot was her exact description.  He had decided to drop a few pounds the low carb way...the really low carb way.  During the holidays no less, he managed to lose around 15 pounds.  She was finding the pounds he was losing, due to holiday festivities and stress.  She finally decided she just wanted to be a robot too.  A dieting robot; no cheating; no wavering; no veering off course.
I am not sure if I want to be a robot, but today was the perfect storm for a non-robot me.  What was it that made it so perfect?  1. I was tired.  Way to tired to think in a long term goal sorta way.  My own fault from staying up too late.  2.  Hectic schedule.  Todays schedule was tight and long.  It involved lots of organization, transporting of children here to there, special classes, a children's valentines party, and a loud roller skating rink.  3.  Over-doing the exercise last weekend.  What I was so proud of at the time, turned out to wear me out by Tuesday.  I need to learn moderation.  4.  Depression Disappointment.  Sadness.  I hate to even mention this in the light of all the real tragedy in the world.  I really have more blessings than I can count, and that might be the answer to me getting out of this sadness; I need to start counting!  I am being real here though when I acknowledge that a big part of my perfect storm is my mood, and boy it is down today.  Nothing tragic.  I am just sad for a child of mine who is having a rough time, and sad for a tough decision I had to make over the weekend.  Things that will be fine because I know God is in control, and I trust Him completely.  Today I am still a little sad though.  5.  Hormones.  Cycles.  The gift of womanhood.  I am about to have the normal hormonal cycle week, and no doubt that is not helping my mood in # 4.

So there it is: the perfect storm.  While overly tired I maneuvered through a very full day, dragging my sore muscles here and there, smiling at the world while crying inside, and all the time wondering if this overdue cramping would ever produce something?  In this unlike robot mood, and hungry from no breakfast (see hectic schedule), I ran into the potluck bonanza at the Valentine party.  I did so good all of January, and today I gave into the meatballs, vegetable pastry thing, pasta, and heart cookies.  Ugh.  When I got home I continued my pity party with my favorites: Nutella and leftover pizza for dinner.

I wish I was one of those people who do not eat when they are in the perfect storm.  It is easier for me to stay strong when I am happy and hopeful.  I need to stop giving in to food when I am sad, or hormonal, or tired, or anything!  I don't want this to turn into the month where I reverse what I did in January.  I am going to address this by doing what I can with the perfect storm factors.  I can get more sleep tonight, exercise more sanely this week, and count my blessings, and pray!

I also need to decide some goals for February and update my pounds lost in January.  I will try to get this done within a couple of days.  So praying Wednesday is a better day!!  What is your dieting kryptonite, and what do you do to conquer it?

Oh and trainermomma.blogspot.com has a really fantastic heart monitor giveaway this week!


FatFighterTV said...

Sorry about your perfect storm - hang in there! And remember, you will have days like that - the key is to keep going.

P.S. Love the name of your blog. :)

Lyn said...

Yeah, it is hard not to eat to soothe ourselves. Sometimes a long, hot bath or a walk outside or just going to bed can help turn things around. Keep on trying! I wish I was a robot sometimes myself.

BrendaKaye said...

Thank you both for your comments!! I am going to try to keep going this week, and distract myself with other things! I have too far to go to stop now!